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Driving to work this morning,  I was thinking of possibilities to strive for. My mind promptly crushed that line of thinking because desiring something can create disappointment if it doesn’t happen.

A strategy I have adopted to cut down on my purchasing of stuff is that I no longer wander through stores, if I can help it. It only makes me realize, that objects I didn’t know existed seconds before, I now can’t live without. By not being exposed to these objects, I don’t feel compelled to own them.  This strategy has worked rather effectively

Squashing the desire to obtain stuff, is a great thing. I don’t use it enough, but I’m getting better. Stopping movement and growth in myself for fear of not achieving, is insidious. What I realized today is that my brain doesn’t see the difference. In it’s willingness to lend assistance, it doesn’t differentiate the desire of what I want to own, from the desire of what I want to become. It does what it has been told to do. Diminish the desire.

Reducing my possessions  is spiritually healing. Squashing movement in my life, kills my spirit. My brain and I have some work to do.


I finished reading the book “The lovely bones”. In the book, the dead as well as the living had to learn how to accept and let go in order to move on. It took time for each of them to learn a new way of living, embrace the new place they found themselves at and to understand that nothing was certain.

The themes resonated in me. That is an emotional stance that I am learning to embrace. It was said about one of  the characters,  Grandma Lynn,  “She no longer believed in talk, it never rescued anything. At seventy she had come to believe in time alone.” pg. 254

That is what I am working on accepting about my life. I am focused on reconciling what I believe is true, with what I can do. I then can let go of the belief  that talk can solve all. Letting go is a dynamic process that never really ends. But letting go can mean a lighter burden. And light feels good.